I have been very inspired to write about this subject for quite some time. It's the topic of motivation and support and how it impacts me. One of the most difficult aspects of my journey has really been to find someone who truly supports me on my journey. Someone who finds the most encouraging things to say especially when I doubt myself. I often do doubt myself and my ability to progress in my journey to go from fat to fit. It's not entirely my fault, I am a product of my environment. As the open letter in my last post demonstrates, I have confidence issues stemming from the years of being belittled over my weight. To this day most of my family still sees me as the fat kid. No matter what I do I find myself back in the same state of mind. A state of mind that tells me that I'm not good enough, that I can't do this, that I don't deserve this. This stems from my lack of support system. In the past I have expressed my goals and desires to those around me, only to feel shot down, put down and made to feel inadequate. This resonates to this day and makes it difficult to open up to people about my goals.
My wife has become my biggest support system. Although (I'm sure) she doesn't quite completely understand my goals or obsession to reach them, she encourages me to keep fighting and supports me to the end. I have expressed my goals to my friend in the past and was shot down by him. At one point I had a fleeting thought that I would look into competitive bodybuilding one day down the road and he basically laughed in my face. Sad but true. Now (not due to him) I have no desire to step on stage for bodybuilding. I am focused on just becoming the best me that I can be. To lead a positive example for those struggle with weight AND weight loss. I will be the support system that they are lacking just as I was lacking.
Aside from my wife, honestly the greatest support system and continued motivation/encouragement have received thus far has been my interactions with some followers on Twitter that I am truly honored to call friends. A conversation with a very good man and friend today really put into perspective how good of a tool Twitter can and has been. The amount of positive influence really fuels us with our goals and our drive.
He has really given me useful advice and tips on how to cope with the past and how to leave a sort of trail of documentation leading away from the past and into the future. My future will be one where my past doesn't hurt me as much as it does today. And just like my friend said, I will look back in astonishment at all that I have completed and will continue to work towards. My friend will keep me grounded because he is so very grounded and I thank him very much for being such a mentor throughout my journey while on Twitter.
Thanks for reading.
My wife has become my biggest support system. Although (I'm sure) she doesn't quite completely understand my goals or obsession to reach them, she encourages me to keep fighting and supports me to the end. I have expressed my goals to my friend in the past and was shot down by him. At one point I had a fleeting thought that I would look into competitive bodybuilding one day down the road and he basically laughed in my face. Sad but true. Now (not due to him) I have no desire to step on stage for bodybuilding. I am focused on just becoming the best me that I can be. To lead a positive example for those struggle with weight AND weight loss. I will be the support system that they are lacking just as I was lacking.
Aside from my wife, honestly the greatest support system and continued motivation/encouragement have received thus far has been my interactions with some followers on Twitter that I am truly honored to call friends. A conversation with a very good man and friend today really put into perspective how good of a tool Twitter can and has been. The amount of positive influence really fuels us with our goals and our drive.
He has really given me useful advice and tips on how to cope with the past and how to leave a sort of trail of documentation leading away from the past and into the future. My future will be one where my past doesn't hurt me as much as it does today. And just like my friend said, I will look back in astonishment at all that I have completed and will continue to work towards. My friend will keep me grounded because he is so very grounded and I thank him very much for being such a mentor throughout my journey while on Twitter.
Thanks for reading.