So I have been pretty M.I.A. from posting for the past several days as I have been struggling with mental aspects of this journey. I have had some bouts of what feels like anxiety and feel myself lashing out more. No bueno. I struggle to accept the progress that I see in the mirror. It is incredibly difficult to accept the progress I have made thus far. my wife is a big supporter of mine yet I lash out at her for her dieting and I think its based on my dissatisfaction with my own progress. we had a blow out where I was nitpicking and my mental state hasnt been the same since that date. Anxiety causes pressure in my chest and just all around fatigue. I haven't really been able to hold food very well as it passes through me quickly.
Each new day brings new obstacles and I opted to take Thursday and Friday off from work to collect my thoughts. I did hit the gym those days and had great shoulder workout at my apartment gym on Thursday and on Friday I had a great arm workout. I feel progress in the sense of my workouts but lately I struggle with the visual aspect. I also had a good leg workout on Saturday although the gym was busier than normal which meant that I wasn't able to get some of the exercises I wanted to do. Plus during the workout I started to feel fatigued very quickly. I pushed on and completed my workout even though I was a bit distracted by the amount of people in the gym. Quite possible everyone was trying to get their workout in before the storm.
This week I did feel sabotaged by food. We went over my mother in laws house Wednesday night where pie was pushed in my face (basically) and then on Friday went over my parents where they ordered pizza and last night went over a neighbor's place for dinner and I drank a lot of beer. So naturally I woke up feeling guilty. when I weighed myself my suspicions were confirmed and I gained 1.2 pounds when I weighed myself this morning. I know I did it to myself. like I was just told it is a bump in the road and I have to get back on track.
One of the main culprits of my weight gain was my lack of cardio this week. On Monday I joined my friend late at night for a weightlifting session and missed my evening cardio session. I was going to join him for another gym session so I missed my cardio workout (although weather prevented me from joining him) so with the schedule changes I fell off track with my cardio regimen. I need to get back on track and continue working towards my goals.
Each new day brings new obstacles and I opted to take Thursday and Friday off from work to collect my thoughts. I did hit the gym those days and had great shoulder workout at my apartment gym on Thursday and on Friday I had a great arm workout. I feel progress in the sense of my workouts but lately I struggle with the visual aspect. I also had a good leg workout on Saturday although the gym was busier than normal which meant that I wasn't able to get some of the exercises I wanted to do. Plus during the workout I started to feel fatigued very quickly. I pushed on and completed my workout even though I was a bit distracted by the amount of people in the gym. Quite possible everyone was trying to get their workout in before the storm.
This week I did feel sabotaged by food. We went over my mother in laws house Wednesday night where pie was pushed in my face (basically) and then on Friday went over my parents where they ordered pizza and last night went over a neighbor's place for dinner and I drank a lot of beer. So naturally I woke up feeling guilty. when I weighed myself my suspicions were confirmed and I gained 1.2 pounds when I weighed myself this morning. I know I did it to myself. like I was just told it is a bump in the road and I have to get back on track.
One of the main culprits of my weight gain was my lack of cardio this week. On Monday I joined my friend late at night for a weightlifting session and missed my evening cardio session. I was going to join him for another gym session so I missed my cardio workout (although weather prevented me from joining him) so with the schedule changes I fell off track with my cardio regimen. I need to get back on track and continue working towards my goals.