My new supplements arrived today and I stacked my Dr. Jekyll along with the new supplement Mr. Hyde and hit the gym. Let me tell you this was not for the caffeine sensitive. it was definitely a rush! I felt like my skin was crawling and felt the urge to push hard and boy did it with limited exercise equipment. Of warning, do not attempt that stack if you are not sure of yout tolerance to preworkout supplements.
I felt great but my personal insecurity started to get to me. I have slight excess skin/fat which is localized more towards pit area so when I perform exercises with arms by my sides the skin is so apparent. Nobody notices it but myself but it makes me cringe. I hate it with a passion. I really hope with my attempt to shed bodyfat and build more muscle that the fat in that area won't be as apparent anymore. I know other people have it worse than me but its my struggle. I am my own worst critic but I seek to fix that imperfection that become more apparent when I lost the weight.
This journey is not an easy one. A year from now I hope people can look back and know that this wasn't easy. I was never an athlete and I struggled with weight all my life as I stated earlier. I am not sure I will ever be able to deal with my body image but every day is a new attempt to accept myself and my progress.